![]() I was ready to commit myself entirely to the prospect of building a future with you. I have nothing to show for it.ĭidn’t we talk about our future? Didn’t we have so many plans for ourselves? Didn’t we thoroughly discuss all of our expectations for one another? I was willing to live up to my end of the bargain. Now I’m left with nothing because the best is gone. You were the best of the people in my life and you still chose to leave. I assumed that to be the case until you chose to leave me. I thought that I had the power to compel people to keep me in their lives. I thought that I was the type of person who was worth fighting for. I always assumed that there was something in me that was worth appreciating. I used to always believe that I had so much to offer other people and the world. They aren’t familiar with how my mind works. I wouldn’t blame people for thinking that way. I started to believe that no one was ever going to be willing to keep me as a permanent facet in their lives I started to believe that I just wasn’t good enough for anyone. I didn’t know if I still even had a purpose in life because the one person who seemingly appreciated me for me just chose to leave. I didn’t see my place in the universe anymore. I didn’t see my value in the life of anyone other than my own. I found myself questioning my sense of self-worth. I still felt that pain that just required itself to be felt. I always had this voice at the back of my head just telling me that you were going to get fed up and that you were just going to get up and leave me to fend for my own. I couldn’t bear the thought of not having you in my life but I never felt like you understood that. I was always so afraid that you would just choose to look after yourself without regard for how your decisions would end up making me feel. There was nothing I wanted more in my life than to have you stick around and fight for our love. I always had this lingering feeling inside of me telling me that you weren’t just committed to fighting for us to fighting for me. I was upset because you always made me feel like I wasn’t worth the struggle. Here’s to hoping that you finally understand where I was coming from. Here’s why I was always less than ideal whenever I was with you. In addition to that, I sincerely hope that you understand the things that led me to say the things that I said to act the way that I did. I genuinely seek your forgiveness and I hope you can find it in your heart to absolve me of my emotional sins. I knew that I wasn’t in a position to really impose my ideas unto you because you have your own individual life too. I knew that I was being unwarrantedly vulgar. I want to say sorry for all those times I acted like a little prick who felt a little too entitled. I want to say sorry for all the times where I didn’t live up to the maturity that was required of me. To begin with, I just want to apologize to you. ![]()
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